There was every reason to forget you..

Life is weird, it’s quite weird sometimes that you completely fall in its trap. People say that everything happens for a reason but this time I couldn't figure out that very reason for you to walk into my life all of a sudden like a gush of a wind.

It’s almost five years now, the day I first saw you till the day I last saw you, all the memories are still fresh inside my heart. It’s as if they happened a while ago. My agony, my longing for you have built a house inside my heart which was hard to break. It was rock solid and I decided to move on remembering you every single day. Days passed, years passed, yet you don’t have a slightest inkling of the fact of how much I love you and how much I want you in my life. For all, I have kept that as a secret in my little heart bearing the pain alone.

You will never know how much I longed for you, yes, I love you but it was what my heart felt and not yours. I don’t blame you for not understanding me because few relations wither away and few facts are buried deep inside one’s heart which would never explode no matter how hard it is to bear.

Then comes another blow which hit me really hard, for you it was just nothing but for me it was everything. It could have been a new beginning, a new start to my fallen feelings whom you have woken up but life tricks you at every juncture reminding you not to be happy. This is a lesson I’m going to teach you and stop wandering in your dreams.

Yes, it did warn me but I ignored it, I started liking this freshness and completely fell for it, then I see the freshness slowly fading away.  I see myself going away with my imagination leading to a road where I once stopped. A point, which led me to nowhere, all I wanted was my questions to be answered and I’m left with unanswered questions now.

How could I let this happen with me again! I forgot, something’s are not planned, they just happen and that very fact snatched away the world beneath me, it once again succeeded in making a total fool out of me.
Now, I laugh at you-life!

For you have won the game and I lost it to you, I wish I could lash out at you, scream at you and get my answers. But I’m no more what I’m.

Insane is what I feel, Insanity is what I cry for. A foul cry which can’t be heard, I’m a shallow soul, which is beyond repair.

For all I wanted is you to be mine!

Now, that there’s every reason to forget you. I move on…